Friday, September 01, 2006

I have no time

Work, work, work. It seems that's all I ever do anymore. My job is busier than ever. When I'm at home there are endless projects to do. I'm always at least three projects behind. The boys are increasingly in more and more activities which take up not only their time but mine. Labor day weekend is coming up and guess what? I have to work. All three days.

I haven't ridden my bike in a couple of weeks

I haven't finished a book in a while.

If I make it to the gym one day a week I'm lucky.

My bonsai trees are dying from neglect.

I'm suffering from a serious lack of free time. Down time where I don't have anything to do and can just relax. In fact, for myself and I'm sure many Americans, there's no such thing as free time. Time where you have no responsibilities and can just chill. Even when I find a few minutes, I can't really relax and enjoy them. There's always something I could be doing. Something I should be doing. I'm never caught up.

The "rat race" we're stuck in just keeps getting faster and faster and I'm struggling to keep up. It's probably more analogous to one of those gerbil wheels. I'm a gerbil in a wheel, running endlessley but never making any progress.

There's got to be a way to slow down, to simplify things, but I can't figure out how to do it. And I only think it's going to get worse. I can faintly see a light at the end of the tunnel but it's about 25 years away and I think I'll die of exhaustion long before I get there.



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